I used to be so sure of myself. Perhaps it is insane to thi..
Added 2023-03-20 22:48:29 +0000 UTCI used to be so sure of myself. Perhaps it is insane to think that I'll always feel settled and good about where I am in life and the decisions I have made. I guess this is what's wrong with fixating on a destination, on a goal. The parameters always change and the bar always resets. Until now, though, I've always been ambitious. I've always wanted to aim higher, have new experiences, explore the copious avenues of self expression in both sex work and activism. For years both of these things are what made me whole. They were my identity. But now I feel distant and disconnected. Its not that I want to throw it all away but if I could take my life to couple's counselling then I would. I miss the harmony. I miss when it was easy. No, I miss when it was hard and I still wanted to try. Happiness hack: fake it till you make it. Back to square one I guess.
