From this month I’m stepping into the dungeon once a week to..
Added 2023-05-01 06:15:23 +0000 UTCFrom this month I’m stepping into the dungeon once a week to develop more skills around dominance. I’ve done OF for a few years and I’ve really enjoyed it but it’s time to add to the toolkit! It’s connected me to some amazing sex workers and I’ve felt inspired to progress in the industry for a while. I’ve dabbled with cam work and other forms but I’ve been pulled towards the pro-dom side of things and I can’t keep ignoring the urges to get into a room with men and harness them. So many of my characteristics were deemed toxic, narcissistic and egotistical growing up. Many ex boyfriends confessed feeling inferior to me and I’d interpreted that as me having a superiority complex but on reflection I see that my most successful relationships were female-led. I know what I am about. I am independent. I have strict principles and I act on them. Many men I’ve had flings with are often attracted to this initially but for some reason they cannot keep up. I can’t make men a priority, especially if I can’t see what value they bring to my life. It doesn’t serve me. It never has. This isn’t selfish, this is what we should all consider. Are we getting as much as we give? I’ve always felt like in my relationships I’ve been expected to fix the men I’m with. I’ve felt pushed into a maternal role in my romantic endeavours because I’m firm but palatable. I can guide with certainty. I used to loathe it because it felt like a job but it’s all clear now. It is my job. It’s what I’m supposed to be doing. I’ve got the potential for it. Now I need to learn to stop apologising for it, work on it and begin. It’s going to be a very interesting journey and I think a lot of self forgiveness and a lot of unlearning will be necessary. I’m excited.
