I never used to be one for star signs but I've really gotten..
Added 2023-09-07 23:47:18 +0000 UTCI never used to be one for star signs but I've really gotten into reading my horoscopes over the last few months. I now have an app that gives me guidance every day and I've found a lot of comfort in it. Earlier when I woke up I felt stressed immediately and so I asked myself a simple question: *"what do I need today?"* The answer was complex in that I knew I needed to find some way of exercising self-love but in a way that wasn't just being lazy and ordering take-out like I'd normally defect to. I needed enrichment. I needed to get out my own head. So I went to the garden centre, bought everything anyone could possibly need to start up a landscaping business and spent my afternoon and evening in the dirt. The dogs roamed freely and peacefully around me. I could hear families running around and laughing in the street. I sat and smelt the soil I was unearthing while BBQs started being lit in adjacent gardens. I drank ice cold water and ate fruit while I sat in fresh grass and remembered how easy it is to forget to indulge in the senses without the motivation of a dopamine hit. It felt good to just *be* and I can't wait to do it again tomorrow. As I got cosy on the couch just now I was flicking through Instagram and there's a page articulating what particular star signs are in need of this month. In a nutshell, I need **balance.** This quote from a post sticks out to me: “*you're looking within yourself for insight instead of relying on external sources. You're learning what needs to be cut out from you life to help you grow."* I've talked to a lot of you about my inability to balance life and work. I've also opened up about my addiction struggles. I had quite a rough weekend which made me confront how I invest both my energy and my money and I felt like something needed to change. I think it's fitting that I woke up out of whack, looked within for what I needed, and then spent hours digging up weeds.
